Been Awhile

Been awhile since i last blog.

What have i been doing ? Swaying around, looking around .. working ..

And somehow recently i began to be mentality very tired.
Longing for something and hope to be love .. craving for the feeling ..

Love is like the ocean. Everybody sees something different when they look at it. For some, it's a place to have fun. For others, it's a scary place where you can drown or be eaten by sharks.

When you're standing on the shore, you see the waves go one by one after the other. You see the flow of the tide. So you think it comes and it goes.

Where you're sitting on the surface, it takes some getting used to. Sometimes it's choppy. Sometimes the waves are really big. Sometimes it's flat and there's not wind. And you think there's a lot of scary stuff lurking below, like undertows, stingrays, jellyfish, and sharks -- all waiting to hurt you -- or worse.

But when you're in it, it's all around you. And most of the earth is ocean. It never requires proof because it's always there. And it's always been there.

Of course, there are always going to be some people in the ocean who are always trying to get somewhere. But there will always be the few who understand that they're already there...

Well same old stories, people complain but never knew what is there and already there or to make things happen.


There are many factors in my life that has gotten me where I am today. One of the surprising things that has had a tremendous impact in my life i guess is when i was 14 and well sigh long story, one is the shortage of love that somehow lead to be very independent and to fight for what i want, and after fighting for what i have, i become too obesse in it and thus taking things for granted and living in a world of entertainment, attention, etc.

And now .. learn to be satisfy,and realize what is more important ...
Trying to make everyday count.
Make every feeling towards someone good. Don't be angry or bitter. Be free from the horrible pattern that this world is taking all of us through ... lol

Somehow deep down .. m really tired .. always going thru the same process, SOP ..lol
And how many really do understand ... or to know our well being and the things we say to guide and to make it better ...

Well the story keep repeating over the years, when will it come to a good ending ..

Heh been awhile i chill out ..