FreAking UpSET !!

Sigh .. whatever i do, i always have her in my heart, always wan the best for her .. but she is just too hard to communicate, always taking things into her own hand and assume it.

Don't know how to make her understand, or i guess i m having communication problem .. issit the way i put it or well the tone i sound it ... but never ever have the thoughts of what she assume ... i just hope she realize it and to take it negative as a positive feedback to improve.

Why can't the attitude be abit nicer and understand my good intention, i always wana be there for her but always turn to a deaf hear, i just wana be someone to be there to guide her, to protect her, to lend her my shoulder whenever she need it.

Whatever i say is all about life logic, what i went through and see ..

And everytime cause of some unhappiness, argument that causes the spark to happen.
When it can be a discussion to communicate.

Sigh .... still thought of giving her a surprise but well end up 99 days is a breakup day ...
I always been so thoughtful for her .. and i never ever complain or say anything .. but is all about third party point of view .. but what i told them is the say as what i told her, because i see her good side and nicest side .. her adorable her smile that hang me on .. the action she do and the small changes which i can see it ...

But bad thing is .. her moral education, character issues, but i never wanted her to change to another person, just wan her to realize and improve to be a better person for her own seek and future to be ...

The love i shower her is not even equal or to make her understand all this ?
I m really a failure to be ...

Somehow or rather i m loSt ... freaking upset about it .... i m too native at the end of the day to believe in love ....

I just wana her to know, i meant well, if i do sound bad, i guess i m sorry .. i just care and concern too much .. and to love to lose it make me haywire ...

Love U .. i mean it when every time i say this and kiss u to tell u this ... all my promises i never meant to break it .. or even to dishonor it ... but ...... i guess i am not good enough to touch u then ...

Sigh ...