THe 3rd weeks i being siGhing ...

Feeling rather moody for the past few weeks and i shut myself off, and sleep my day away .. sleeping for more then u can imagine .. siGh ...

At times i thought that i really had let go of the past, but sometimes i wished that something had never end. For the past few mths without her, i been living a life without tomorrow. Spend like there's no tomorrow, club like there's no tomorrow. But end of the day i still feel empty. I really dun enjoy the life i living now. i really wish for something that i proud of and worth working for.

But well i gueSs the priority now is to make my every day full fill to be with a JOb that i like .. i always wonder when will be the day someone will recognize my ability, i always think i can do better if given the chance... well recently i start to have another thinking, should i try to switch my belief from love stories to realistic stories to be ..

Then TODAY my Gay friend told me ..heh you finally wake up to your ideas .. lol.
Am i all the while living in a land of fantasy, hoping and wishing for fairy like stories ..

Hatezz say :-
Been watching 溏心風暴之家好月圓. How i wish that i had a family like their. Been like crying for almost every episodes. How i wish that i had that kind of family warm. Few days back, i missed home-cook food so much. It been like ages since i had someone cooking for me. That kind of warm that i always long for. Whenever i passby my neighbour house at dinner time, i feel the kind of sour running through me. At times i wish that i could start afresh at a foreign country where no one know who i'm and no one or things that remind me of my past.

James say well Hi^5, i wish too .. it always being in my thoughts and for one reason why i cannot forget someone .. not because of anything but the feeling she give me which i being craving for so long ..and everything is just what i want to be, something which i feel warm from her love and all because of my stupid principle, things had to turn another way round ..

And so i sms her out of the blue and ask her How r u ..have have u been ..
The reply is well .. "Can u dun bother to msg me? I dun feel like received yr msg. I been very well nt tgt wif u." sound disheartening ya .. I just reply ..that was not what i meant, just being concern as a friend ..

At the end of the day ..the greatest enemy is still me, the me who causes all this to happen .. but still i believe one day someone out there will understand ..