Miss miss ...

Out of the blue, and well here I am.
At work currently, surfing the net, finding ideas and well of course missing my Miss Naughty :)

I notice the changes in her, giving in to me and compromise which i really feel glad and thanks for her understanding. Just want her to know i treasure her and thanks for everything. Forgive me on my sensitiveness and etc. Am glad now at least we do say out each other wrong or unhappiness things at times and without letting anger rule over our head...

My love birthday is coming, i been racking my brains .. looking around .. and well ... we sure see :P

And as usual, i love surfing around love site and i came across this .. ABC of love :) - well pretty meaning ..

Advocate for your lover whenever they need you.
Be a great team player.
Collect your thoughts before a confrontation.
Discuss, don’t nag.
Exercise your ability to turn them on.
Find new adventures to embark on together.
Give them reasons why you love them each and every day.
Hold your partner’s hand while you walk down the street.
Include each other in decision making.
Judge not the mistakes of the past.
Kiss slowly, forgive quickly.
Learn your partner’s love language.
Make love when he needs to be loved.
Never put him down in front of others.
Open your mind to change.
Plan grand gestures of love for them every so often.
Quit your bad habits.
Resist temptation.
Support to your partner’s dreams and desires.
Trust your partner more than you trust anyone else.
Underestimate not the power of praise.
Value his attributes and strengths.
Welcome his advice.
X out selfishness.
Yield and compromise when your partner needs you to.
Zeal and creativity is how you please him between the sheets.

*miss miss

我的野蛮女友 !

Life being great ... so far so good , been awhile i chill, club, catching up with friends, etc.

Just work, be a houseman doing housework, be a nice BF seeking for attention, playing my ps3 .. simple ? i guess so and yet pretty sextisfying ... faint :)

This GF of mine had been pretty notty but yet stealing my heart away.
Usually my past gals would be pretty quiet and don't argue with me much ... and now, don't know is it retribution, well this gf of mine is never afraid of me .. Oops, just kidding, nothing much to complain about except i guess i can differentship and appreciate the things she had done so far for me, just just at times, well her stubbornness can really kill me. Still coping fine, learning to adapt and be tactical about it. Just want her to know, no matter what happen, is because i care and i love her.

IN LIFE, there are enough times when we are disappointed, depressed and annoyed.
We don't really have to go looking for them.

We have a wonderful world that is full of beauty, light and promise.

Why waste time in this world looking for the bad, disappointing or annoying
things when we can look around us, and see the wondrous things before us? As long we always remember the initially part that lead to anything, be it bad or good, the point is usually the starting point is because we care.

I believe that WE ARE HAPPIEST WHEN we see and praise the good and try our best to forego the mistakes of our spouse Nobody's perfect but we can find perfection in making it together to walk a longer path, to change the way we see them. Its is necessary to understand the difficulties and be a helping hand to each other.... THAT BRIGHTENS THE RELATIONSHIP .

That is something which i want my dear you to know, and that is something in you which i love. Be it you're the tiger, i still love you. Be it the small little temper, your stubbornness, i still love you. But just hope you do understand my intention and my love for you. I know my short coming at times, but whenever something happen, i do reflect and think about it, well because when we show one pointing finger towards others, three fingers are pointing towards us only. :)

You always say i don't understand nor i do appreciate .. be it anger filling your head to lead to this but still i wanted to say i do, i can feel, i can see. Maybe at times is i care too much or well my way of solving things to care, to be nice and sweet.

Well the good thing is, your good point and my love for you make up for all those imperfectness which i will never give up, because you are the one i be searching for, someone who make me feel to settle down, someone who share the same mentality as me.

You make me smile when I hear your voice. You make my heart race just thinking about you. You are the most wonderful woman I've ever known in my life till date.

The past is the past,well they are good of course, because they make up my life till now, they make me grow up and learn to love, making me having the right mind set now, as i mention before, i thanks them for whoever you're, now i only look forward and give my blessing to my past, say hi to me when you see me, and looking forward to another stage of my life.

Well my love,iF i do broke your heart at times and I don't know how to make it right, do forgive me, and I'll spend the rest of my life trying.

You are the love of my life now. God sent me an Angel and her name is Joanne... the queen in my life now. Although at times really give me one big one small ball :P

For you -

I long to show you how much I love you

All the love in the world can not compare to the love I have for you

You bring joy into my life, laughter into my days

Tears to my eyes when you're not beside me

I long for you to be happy and to be loved like you want to be loved

I want to give myself to you forever

I LOVE YOU

I would walk the ends of the earth for you if it meant it would show people how much you mean to me

To look into your eyes and know that our love for one another is eternal

No one or nothing could change the way I feel for you

I know that we will be together until the end of time

You are always in my thoughts, my heart and dreams

I LOVE YOU

This I dedicate to you, to show you how much you mean to me

All my love


PS - m so sleepy in office now ..

LIfe now ..

Everything seems so nice to be .. having the right feeling .. and yet i guess along the path ... i would say it is not easy to walk through .. u hurt someone in the process of searching ... and yet today i met someone who tend to understand what i want and what it takes to walk a longer path.

I always told myself whatever i did, i do, i must be clear to my heart .. but maybe one thing i always feel bad is relationship, but the least i told myself i did and do my part. Feeling bad as in i am selfish in a way, i know what i want ... and when till the day my partner don't understand me, i will walk away and sway away .. and i didn't handle that part well... whatever in the past relationship make me learn something along the way, i don't hate them, i thanks them for once being part of my life to make me become and have what i want today. Am a person who don't live in my shadow but well i will feel bad at times, and i hope they are doing good and i don't wish to see them down too.

I always belive to face our past and take tings positive, the only way we can move on ahead and hold our head up and find our happiness.

It been awhile i have this feeling that makes me feel more happy, makes me smile more, a person that i can trust on, someone when you see i can have a future with, she is focused on me, hopefully am not on the second place in her life, and of course to have a balance in life, communication, to spice up life, be it sexually, mentatly, etc....

Friends for now i guess well i might be straight forward but am always trueful to friends .. i guess i did my part too ...

I guess no one is perfect .. but lots of things we just can't see things on the surface but have to look beyond it... be it fate or well anything, i treasure what i have now, i do my part to keep it going and lasting to be .. take example of what happen around us and learn from it, understand it on why it happens ... and well dun let anger rules over our mind ...

Well, usually i only blog when i'am unhappy, but now i am not unhappy, maybe just to express my feeling using another way ...

Here i have to Say .. wondering ...

When things happen i guess, its not u nor me alone .. it takes 2 hand to clap ..

When you love someone and the relationship has to end in any reason that hurt us both, it has to end right at that moment and i guess i have to accept it and let go. don't have to ask questions why it happened; don't have to look for answers because i will see none, just selfishness. Things could get ugly if insist looking for it.

Don't try to change the course of fate, if it's meant to end then it has to end and let go i guess, a consolation prize to console myself in a way or selfishness, not used to it ...

I cannot patch the holes and loopholes that happened to both of us. There will always be grudges, blaming and comparison with each other. It's the way it is; its how letting go is. There could never be a nicer way to do it, but to let go and accept it. Only time could tell if all wounds have healed, things will fall in their right places at the right time. As the old adage goes "Time will heal all wounds" as old as it is, it is still true even to this time...

When it comes to relationships, it doesn't matter who is right or who is wrong. Yes, we will go through the process of fighting for our rights because we think we are right but at the end it really doesn't matter. Relationship lasts because it's meant to last, it will end if it's not meant to last and you have to let go if we don't know how to make it works together ...

All i have to say, i did love you and i feel bad now .. i will feel uneasy and recall when you're around .. i will look at our picture and say how sweet it is .. i will recall every moment u're around ... the cute you, your stupid face .. the way you talk back to me, copying what i say ... everything little single things you say .. you do ..thanks for being part of my life ... i guess that is the best way we have to part, please do remember what i have say before, whatever or how bad it is, its all for your own good ..look forward and don't be native to certain things .. and most important ..do take care ya ...

What is love to me .. in this era ...

When you love someone, you want to be with them. Not just be with them, but share everything with them. You have a great day at work and want to rush home and tell them every wonderful thing that has happened. You feel excited at the prospect of just being in their company, just being close to them isn't enough, you want to be a part of them, a part of their life forever. You can't stand the thought of being away from them yet, when you are, you still feel that ever-present bond that ties you together wherever you go. You can almost feel what they are feeling. You feel like, with a little bit of effort, you can see what they are seeing and think what they are thinking. It is almost as if you both can occupy each other's bodies with complete trust and harmony. That to me is love... to know what it takes to tie a guy down and to feel love .. in this era, there is not such things as fairy tales story, loving each other ever as forever to be .. it all takes lots of factor to be .. Guy somehow on the other hand can be a bit MCP (Male chauvinist Pig) .. is the same as want to tie a guy down, u need to fill his hunger ... but to a certain extend, to much MCP make the ger miserable somehow to be ...

Now, on the other side of the spectrum, there are a host of emotions that people confuse with love. One of the most common is lust. There is a difference between wanting to sleep with someone and wanting to spend the rest of your life with someone...

Being overly dependent on the other person is also not a part of love. Some people fall into the trap of thinking they love someone just because they are afraid to be alone. They have become dependent on the other person for so much that they don't know how to make it on their own, or they would much rather be with someone than no-one.

This leads to the old cliché, in order to love someone else, you must first learn to love yourself. Well, we've all heard that before, but what does it really mean? It means that you have to be confident in your own ability and your own judgement. You really have to like yourself and know what you have to offer another person. There is no way that you can love another person if you are so stuck in your own hang-ups that you bow down and propitiate to the other person. That is, you do anything they ask and agree with everything they say out of fear that they will love you less because you don't do those things... well who understand that anyway ..

I Guess We experience situations for a reason. Not every situation is going to be idyllic...

M getting pretty tired over lots of things in life that i'm struggling with .. and yet i can't find a motivation to it .. nor to share about it ... nor the facts m getting older each year ...
when your heart is calling you a traitor the second you think about it? and that make me feels i cant and i try that i did .. well honestly speaking the facts is i cant yet i am hiding to be .. hiding everything to be yet becoming another person ..feeling guilt and bad ...and struggling to pass by everyday ..

Well i guess not allot do understand ... well .. m selfish ..yet cant bear to be hard hearted ...

16th years of memory of my Mum

Hmm somehow this day bring back memories .. duno issit sad or well issit glad to be ... all along my dad will think i very the boxin, never once visit my mum once or rather this date to be.

Honestly speaking, she is always in my heart, till now i never forget abt her, never forget how she look, never forget the things she does for me and my sister.

Right here, all i can tell her is well am doing fine, trying to be better, and once sister is out, i will take care of her wholeheartedly.

I know i spend rather sometimes to be better, or rather wasted sometimes to be.
But today somehow wake me up abit, instead reminding me of something.

If you're up there watching me, i hope you do believe in me to see what i am doing .. love you always, my dearest mum.

M i lost ....

Been awhile i blog ... somehow recently i feel lost, and i choose not to bother with anything .. something is amiss ...

B had been nice ... but somehow i feel and i think .. is she really happy ..deep down m thinking am i the one or am i really been so demanding ... will she be the one ? But no matter what, i can't bear to hurt her in a way ...

Work not going well recently ... and allot of stuff came running into my mind .. and some stuff which i have leave it for awhile, need to be dug up and solve it too ... and i told myself i being too irresponsible towards certain stuff.. and how many more years can i leave it there and how many more years can i afford to run away from it ..

I sit down now and really did some thinking, can't help feeling emo, thinking what is my direction now, where do i see myself in a few years times... to a certain extend, i had not being really very honest to myself, and choose to hide it away, not to think about it... This days, i am not being very positive ... even my mask is coming off .. too tired ...mentality tired. Even too lazy to bother.

I been catching up with friends, close friends ... sisters ... one thing when I'm out with them, at least i feel very glad to have them around .. want them to be happy too ...

The me now is pausing somehow .. don't know where to move, don't know where to go, just wish to slp all the way ..not to think, not to bother ... wondering where is my drive now .. or i guess i just need to grumble for now ..feeling too stress let me wonder around too much .. think too much ...