lOst In tHe MiDdle oF nO wHere

At times, certain things seem so simple but yet it become so complicated, I care just as much for the her welfare and fulfillment as I do for my own. Story seems to be different every single day, plot changing, scenario changing, everything just change within a second..

Does a person who tends to hate their life so much, blaming and living in the shadow of the past make their life so miserable ? Or well excuses of not facing it .. Having a shoulder to cry on when our burdens are too heavy to bear alone is not really that hard .. But how many person deep in their heart do know to treasure and cherish, moving on with clear objectives and do know what they want in life together with the right one .. Fate, happiness is within our own hand to achieve .. And what is real happiness .. Something that I laugh and smile from my heart, and money is sure not the main factor but still it is a side factor... even Rome don't built in 7 days either lol ...

Human r always self contradicting I guess ...

Well who to blame .. the environment, the bastard and etc lol ...spoilt market ya ..
Me too being living in the shadow that’s y I been trying to break free and never to live in that shadow and let it control me.

The quality of the time spent with each other is as important as the quantity I guess, Understand that people can be great actors. We all tend to play games with one another, to appear to be what we are not... heh tiring lol ..

The day before yesterday we were still having coffee ..chatting around .. and well yesterday it just changes again lol .. thought we already have a plan for today to go watch movie .. till now I keep hoping she will call or sms lol .. Is Communication really that hard ? I never meant to control, but well out of mutual respect and concern is my point ...

Love do have interesting facts, it has an organizing and a constructive effect on your personality. It brings out the best in you. There is an intense and satisfying feeling of greater self-realization and expression, as well as a feeling of having one's own personality reinforced and strengthened and enriched. Love gives you new energy and ambition, and more interest in life. It is creative, brings an eagerness to grow, to improve, to work for worthy purposes and ideals. Love is associated with feelings of self-confidence, trust and security. Love lifted you to new levels of maturity and responsible action. When you love a person you make an effort to be more deserving of the beloved. You want your beloved to be proud of you, so you try harder. Life has more purpose. You make plans and save for the future. Life takes on new meaning, more sparkle... well sound abit meaningless for now lol.

Tragedy may have robbed me of my beloved before. In spite of the pain of loss, I still likely to be a better person for having had love. I can better understand myself and be better prepared for finding success in my future relationships. Be more mature and grew through love experience, and that growth will not all wither away. Whatever happened, love does have an organizing and constructive effect on one personality... well stay positive .. but haiz I guess time will always be the best judge around... Time is the infatuated person's best friend. It is both the great revealer and the great healer.

Our minds can talk about love, but they can't actually experience love. Love can only be experienced through feeling, but well y people don't treasure the feeling .. dupz.

Haiz .. I just realize my heart is not with me now .. somewhere with someone .. :(