What is LoVe?

Never in my life, have I tried so hard to make the effort work and to get reconigsation from her.
Never in me to remain in silence to bear all the unhappiness in a relationship.
Not matter what happen, I can never be right and I m always wrong.
Not the least being considerate to me, sigh... same old problem.
She can be late while I cannot, she can do whatever she want, while me always to have her as the first priority.
Am I being taken for granted or well I am not good enough.
Whenever she is unhappy, it’s easier to get to know about it as a friend to be, but me at times will be the one for her to frustrate her anger.
Is it because I am her bf and somehow she is like this to me as in well she don’t have to hide her emotion or assuming I deserve it as being her bf to be.
I don’t really mind but well somehow or rather, I feel sad and heartbroken, the word she says can be so harsh and mean.
As a bf, I am like having no place in her, or rather a failure to cheer her up.

Is my judgement wrong?

Well she is not really that bad, but well maybe too used to having a pamper life? Being treated like a princess?
She can be very adorable, really, seeing her smile, looking into her eye, you can feel the love in her.

I do not want a gf just for physical needs.

I want a gf who is proud of having me as her bf.

Am I having a problem in me too?
Am I not being understanding or devoted enough?
Am I not treating her and be sweet enough?
Am I not putting enough love in my action for her?

I guess this is my choice that I choose, and well love is all about patience.
Maybe is a way of protecting herself from harm and hurt.

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love.
And well I feel that from her, at times I just wish the time will just stay there and don’t move.

Love stretches your heart and makes you big inside, that are why I am so gracious towards her and trying so hard to touch her and its all by my heart, willingly to do it for her, but I guess its human nature to complain, so writing is the best form I think. As I don’t really open myself much either.

Where love is, no room is too small.

At the end of the day, it make me worry, worry of losing her, worry she leave me for a cause or reason to be.
Worry she leave me course she choose not to face it. So allot of times I choose to remain silent, worry she get angry, she choose not to think, she will just let go. I guess I really love her too much.

Hmm currently at work, nothing much to do, well still damm free, and the stupid boss like to give work during last min when about to knock off. Thinking about her and thinking how to improve my money flow. Hopping to find more satisfaction in life and get myself occupy. Working hard together with her.

I always hold myself very high, someone who know how to present myself, someone who is smart and quick in thinking, mature but someone who is a fool in love.

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down." - Woody Allen,

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