Boring Weekend

Okie what i did last week ..
Work and more work ....

Last Thursday, something new to add on to my job experience, i went on board our company vessel call Bro Venture ..interesting ..took a small boat from west coast jetty, then half an hour boat ride to the main ship ...Nice sea breeze, been awhile .. let me wonder some thoughts ...

Well on board the vessel is indeed interesting, went to the main deck where the captain handle the ship ..well i was there to check on the system anyway .. looking forward to board another vessel soon :)

Nothing interesting recently, just focusing on work then home .. well i realize the nearer it get to my birthday, the more unhappy i feel. At times i wish to have people there to celebrate for me or even someone i love to be there .. but after so many years .. the feeling just get numb.

I guess, We all want, above all, to be heard - but not merely to be heard. We want to be understood - heard for what we think we are saying, for what we know we meant.

But still being the positive me, will still continue to move on, that is life.

I m missing something .. after so long .. "Have i told u lately that i want to hear you ?"
I being trying to move on but all is just lust to me or like i say before just being lead on .. or well again disappointment when i put in effort.

Once awhile i still sms her, but all i get is disappointment or the least not even being as a friend to be, but i just wish her to know she still in me, or the least i wish to know how had she been doing.

Some people hold truth to the myth that there is only ONE love for you out there. This could not be farther from the truth. Humans have the ability to deeply love any person they choose to. True we may have a stronger, intimate connection with some, but it doesn't mean it can only happen once. For whatever reason, this relationship isn't the right one for me? well i duno. If it were, i guess i still be in it.

"When you're feeling down, remember that. Know that your special someone is out there, and when you're ready you WILL find them. But, you have to start looking ahead of you to find him/she. He/she isn't going to be trailing in your shadows."<--- a consolation to be :)

Well m spenting my weekend to watch this i guess 溏心风暴之家好月园 ...
Can't believe it i been watching HK drama recently again ... and again how i wish life is like a drama at times :)