Too much lust over love for the past few months ...?

Being awhile i wrote something, whenever i'm really down, i would write, and somehow i was disappointed with my life recently ...

What have i been doing lately ? - well drinking liquor like no tml, every week drink, every week chill ... and i guess karma do happen ..am i really doing wrong or somehow its not the time yet.

I been enjoying my work, that is where i can find sense of fulfillment.
But other then that, somehow what i have been looking is always not there or either i am too picky.
People i see, people i met, they seemed to me to be painfully naive and their innocence, particularly in the area of sexual morality,evoked my patronising sympathy somehow.

To have sex with someone is a profoundly meaningful thing and if misused the effects can be devastating. Making love for everyday needs ? Sex for communication ? :)

The difference between love and lust. Love honours, values and seeks the best for the beloved. It focuses on the other person. It's selfless, sacrificial and inseparable from commitment. Lust, on the other hand, seeks to use things or people to meet its needs and gratify its desires. It focuses inward on itself, is inherently selfish, and rejects commitment.


But somehow i guess i being native, to believe or easy to be lead on somehow, yes i m gracious on the surface but deep inside me, i feel disappointed.

Lust is powerful and seductive, but it's inherently selfish and opposed to love. As we foster and feed lust in our lives we're dragged inexorably towards isolation, loneliness, insecurity and emptiness. What do we have left when orgasm becomes boring and unsatisfying, left alone to face the pain of guilt and loneliness? and lust often replaces love.

Wait till the lust dies down and see what's left -- then we will blame the sky and earth .. but nevertheless who're we anyway, i guess at least with integrity and not to hurt the other party.

Well lesser expectation will come with lesser disappointment.
At times people just not being truthful somehow, not about what they did but about what they say and we choose to be native to believe it. And when you saw it with your eye, well thats bitches and bullshit.

I always see human beings complaining, saying how emo they feel, how bastard someone can be and bla bla bla ... but well do they really cherish for what they have somehow ...

I guess nothing is explainable, things do happen for a reason but i really hate being cheated or bluff .. the least i don't do that to people and i hope i don't deserve that either. And yes do i really look so native on the surface ? i guess i just continue to believe the time is not ripe yet ...